Desorganised thinking. Trying to keep my sht together til the end of the year, keep going to work, btw someone at work betrayed me, he said something about me that really shouldnt have. I feel disappointed and paranoid, these days have been rollercoasters and full of anxiety inducing situations and i used to rely on this peson, now today confirmed why he has distanced himself from me - he cant stand me depressed and doesnt understand me. Looks like some ppl go, some new ones come. Ive been struggling with my thoughts lately, my support at work gets pissed off all the time because i cant explain stuff well to her -- should i tell her about my disorganised thinking? Maybe that way she understands. I feel lucid some days, but days like today make me feel plain stupid. I blew up my chances with my love interest and now i will just let go, cant stand this no more