I can't believe I am not alone when it comes to the darkness anxiety and fear.

Sorry, I am new here also. 32 year old mother of 6 (3 mine, 3 step) and have a husband that is wonderful, but this has been no picnic to get through.

I have ptsd and panic with depression. I am a sexual abuse survivor (dad), and am struggling with many symptoms that 'regular' people would never understand. I am living in Philadelphia and looking for a support group, but have been unable to find one as of yet.

The dissociation is of real concern to me, because it will sometimes trigger my panic attacks. I hate to be alone, or even just awake alone. I always feel very afraid, like I'm in the middle of a bad horror movie. This has been happening alot lately in the past month. Nothing before that.

I really need a support group, face to face / this support forum, to help me deal with this.

Thanks for listening,
Toyheart