I was definitely broken. And finding the lost pieces -- having them find each other? -- has definitely been a part of the journey for me. Anne's quote was so on point.

The other question -- whether or not you are a total f**up. If you "are", does that mean that people can't love and care about you? It did, for me, and I so tried very hard not to be a total f**up, only to succeed, unplanned, in being one on some horrendous occasions.

So -- does that mean that people can't love or care about me? Or that I can't be anything other than a total f**up on other occasions in my life? The jury is still out on those questions.

It's my perception that I was broken and a total f**up on occasions. And I believe that perception is accurate. Best I've got to go on. It's also my perception that the jury is still out on the questions above. The verdict will come in when it comes in. Your T can't predict it, either. Unless - her perception is her perception -- is she the jury on that? Have you made her your jury on that? Are you sure that's the jury you want?

You're OK -- that's my opinion. For what it is worth.