Hi, I'm looking for some advice on a therapist I am thinking of returning to.

I saw her before for a year and she did amazing work with me, I saw a huge change in myself after a year. However, there were a few red flags that came up. When I had severe health anxiety I was referred to a psychiatrist and she seemed annoyed at me and seemed to disagree with my choice to do that, even though it ended up helping me immensely.

I told her once I couldn't come the following week due to not having enough money and she went very silent and looked very disappointed until I gave in and said ok, I would figure out the money and come next week. She told me I had to be consistent with my appointments as it was really important, but I still found her reaction odd. Finally, when I had to terminate therapy (again for financial reasons), I told her I had no money but could I come for a closing session. She said no, I could come back when I had money. This was incredibly upsetting and traumatic for me and I couldn't even think about it for the next few months without breaking down. When I had money again I went back to her, but I had lost all trust in her and felt very closed up.

In the past few years I've had a few different therapists here and there but it's so difficult to find the right one. Lately I've been thinking about going back to this T as I found her so good. There were some red flags for sure, but I learned so much from her and she helped me immensely with developing self awareness and inner confidence. But maybe it's a step backwards at this stage and I may find myself closed up again.

What would you do?