Thanks. No, as you say I didn´t see the point in treating her nicely, that would be telling her we could cancel the phone session, as she has hurt me so much. It had been another thing if she made a mistake that couldn´t be avoided but now she had so many chances to prevent this abrupt temination from happening.

Yes, it also seems hard (impossible without enough money) to find a therapist who can help me through this grief and who understands my situation has to be dealth with both as the grief it is but also in a way of understanding transference love.