Thanks. It´s a rather long story but what happened was that she in the beginning of our therapy told me I could see her as long as I needed which turned out to be far from true. She saw me within church, for free, and the congregation had a 20 sessions limit. She told me about this limit in the beginning but after a while she said this about I could see her as long as I needed and I believed her.

I also took for granted that she had established that with her supervisor and the congregation, to see me for more than 20 sessions that is.

She also was very encouraging about our therapy and as late as before summer, therapy ended a while after her summer vacation, in September, she said she was happy to continue our work together.

But after she had to consult with her supervisor on a thing in our therapy, her supervisor found out about us having had almost 40 sessions and her supervisor told my T to just end it all.

After I e-mailed the supervisor it seems like she didn´t tell my T to end it all so abruptly, my T told me her supervisor had told her to end our therapy more or less immediately.

From one day to another I got to know, through an e-mail from my therapist, that our next session would be the last. I asked her if there was a possibility to continue our work. We talked on the phone as I was too shocked to go see her on this very last session and I told her the importance of some time to terminate.

But she meant she couldn´t do anything about it, which was mostly true I guess, but it was my therapist who caused all this from the beginning. She knew she wasn´t allowed to go beyond the 20 sessions limit and she told me she wasn´t able to end it with me, that she was worried how I´d react. she meant that was the reason she just kept going but she was of course aware of how it might end if someone within the congregation got to know about the lenght of our therapy.


Instead she kept going and it ended in a catastrophe.


As she more or less lied to me about me having the possibility to see her for as long as I needed and as she kept lying and encouraging me about our therapy in many ways I now felt the only thing left was to ghost her.


I felt I couldn´t talk to her about the ending as it was she who caused it all, it wasn´t just a mistake. Also, I couldn´t talk to her and end on a positive note either, that had just been fake. For the same reason, she can´t console me. I didn´t think she was worth me cancelling the phone session so I decided to ghost her.

Now afterwards I just hope she sometimes thinks of me, perhaps she worries a little about what happened to me as I suddenly now just vanished. Even if I think she partly expected that, we had two phone sessions before this one I now didn´t use and she knows I was disappointed and also ended up feeling worse than I did before entering therapy with her.