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Old Nov 09, 2018, 08:36 PM
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Originally Posted by Blueberrybook View Post
I'm sorry. I have a hard time too.

My first hospitalization, I was evaluated by a group of pdocs & Ts. One of the pdocs there thought I was bipolar I while the other 2 thought it was major depression. I will never forget that doctor who thought I was bipolar told me, "You will never be able to live alone. If you hold down a job, it will be difficult. You will always need to live with someone else."

At the time, I thought that was a negative attitude and a lousy thing to throw on a 25 year old, so pessimistic.

As the years go by though, God, I realize he was right. If I'd been alone, I don't think I could have kept up a household. I barely do it now. I would have crashed and burned and likely not even be here right now.

It's like a horrible curse or something and yet it's there. I have come to terms with it. On the one hand, I know I am a strong woman who has survived a lot of crap many others would not have. I know as a young adult, I flourished, and in high school, it looked like the sky was the limit when it came to my future. I was crushed when that sky fell down on me.

But it's OK I can't live on my own. I'm lucky I at least have family to help me, family who hasn't just thrown up their hands and given up on me.

And for now, I just have to accept that and live with it. Life could always be worse.
Thank you for sharing. You are strong. It's true that we need to look at the good things that we do have. I think I need to stop focusing on people judging me, because it's self-sabotaging. The problem is, although I recognize this, it's so hard to apply it. The negative thoughts get so intense! It's really a struggle, especially during depression when it feels like there's no way out. I still feel that way a lot, but I'm trying to hang in there.
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Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
Thanks for this!
Wild Coyote