Not as often as I should, but a lot more than I did when I first started. Then I could barely look at her at all. I find it hugely embarrassing to be there and to be talking about things most of the time. When I'm feeling like that, there is no way I can make real eye contact. Sometimes I'll look in her general direction, but sort of unfocus/blur my eyes, so I'm not really seeing her. Hopefully this will get better as I start to trust her more.
I thought one of the earlier poster's comments was interesting that they can make eye contact when they're sort of putting on a brave front. I do that too. If I'm angry I can glare right at her. It's when I'm being vulnerable that I have much more trouble with it.
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