I love my T. But I don't ever want to say those words to him because I think he would get worried about ethical dilemmas: thinking that I was suggesting that something romantic could happen between us, or something like that. So I keep it to myself. It's true that it has sometimes been painful in how it highlights the one-sidedness of therapy, that I can't really be as important to him as he is to me. But I feel that thankfully, at this point, I am comfortable with the therapy relationship and with caring a lot about my T even though I'm not in his 'real' life outside of his work, but also knowing that he does truly care about me, even if I am part of his work.