See it is impossible for me to know things. I dont have many memories before the age of 8 and what I do remember are just a little bit of snapshots of sexual play with peers. All I do remember is I was taken to therapy at age 8 for some issues. I began freaking out about anything sex related. All I have to go on is what my mother and father say. My father is willing to talk about it anytime but says he only remembers that i got very upset that a boy kept exposing himself to me. My mother said that she took me to therapy because I said I wanted to die and the things i mentioned above ( suggesting or*l s*x with dad and wanted to touch a womans breast) she denys that now. Saying i was just jealous of my sister. I have a documented piece of paper that said when I was 8 I touched my infant sister. What does being jealous have to do with that? My mother just shuts down when I try to get answers. I need to heal. My therapist thinks my mother may at least be able to tell me what I was like prior to 8 since i dont remember.