I desperately want to take you up on the twice weekly sessions but can't afford to, and now I wish you hadn't offered because I feel awkward telling you in case you think I'm trying to get you to do it cheaper or something...aaaargghhh...it felt so good that you offered and now it's just stressing me out I can't stop thinking about it and I'm also scared of needing you this much. Things can't get worse, we both know that. I'm just trying to stay alive. I'm scared and I wish you were here.