Eleny,

It's naturally sad when a relationship has to end. Your sadness is normal, as well as your guilt because he had attempted suicide many times and you ended it after the last time. However, do not feel guilty for leaving an abusive relationship and for taking care of yourself, foremost, and most importantly. He was abusive and unstable. You had no choice BUT to leave.

And that is absolutely horrible what he did to you. No excuses and apologies do not matter. I am glad you blocked him. PLEASE do NOT blame yourself for anything. He is laying that on you, and you are accepting the blame. You are NOT to blame. He is for being so unstable and abusive!!!! People cannot help having mental health issues, but they can help being abusive. It is a choice and he chose to abuse you. In no way are you to blame for any of his behaviors or abuse!!!

You did yourself a huge favor by cutting this A-hole out of your life. You don't need that and you certainly do not need guilt or blame.

Please do pursue therapy if you can. ((((hugs))))))