Possible trigger:
I had a sexual assault/rape happen in early December at a massage parlor (a nice looking place, not seedy) when I was in my early 30s. The way things happened, the assistant DA refused to press charges. The police messed things up, and it ended up being my word against his. By that point, I had lost a lot of weight from the stress of the incident, not even trying, so I suppose I looked frail, as you might expect after such an incident. They refused to even take it to a grand jury. Apparently, they thought my frailty made me a poor witness to the grand jury, making the case too iffy. I didn’t know it at the time, but the DA was very sick (died soon after), and of course, all the assistant DAs wanted the job. Wins look better than cases that go nowhere.
So that on top of everything else makes me hate December even more, not even getting listened to, the police messing up and admitting it, but oh, well, too bad, so sad.
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