Rather unfullfilling session today. I trust my T; I think she is great. I just have such a difficult time opening up to *anyone*. I *want* to be able to be open and not so guarded, she knows this and I just can't figure out how to get there. She is left feeling that maybe I really don't want to be in therapy. I do! I started going twice a week because it was hard to wait a whole week in between being seen, but if I'm just going to show up and have such a hard time being open, then I feel like punishing myself and not even going once a week.

So frustrated!