Thank you all so much! I feel better already! It's so nice to meet such a supportive group of people. I have enjoyed watching your posts for awhile and I am incredibly impressed with how you maintain such positive attitudes. It's very comforting. It always helps to share, and know that we are not alone.
I am so happy to have found you.
I have an interview tomorrow for a new job, and could really use your good thoughts. I've never had a problem landing the jobs...guess I have a pretty winning personality in the interviews...it's keeping them that I am struggling with. I've been fired 38 times in my life, and I am only 30 years old. That has to be some weird record or something don't you think?
The bottom line is I want to grow and learn and better myslef by correcting my past mistakes. The frustrating thing is that I can't figure out what I have done wrong. After 38 times, I know it seems like it should be obvious...but people are always so passive aggressive. I've been told that I did a great job...but it's just not working out. Or, "Gee, you work so hard! It's just that your not as smart as we would like you to be." Now, I don't FEEL like a stupid person...but I am begining to think I am crazy. Like I have this false sense of confidence. What am I missing here?
I really want this job that I am going for tomorrow, but I am scared to death that it will only reject me like all the others have. I really want to go in knowing that it will be different this time. I just don't know what I need to do to make that happen. I am determined to make this one work...but then again, I was determined to make the last 38 work as well. I am just so lost. I feel okay right now, but sort of on the edge. Any advice? Any ideas what I could be doing to cause people to fire me? What are they not telling me? I know I am a good person with a big heart and I work hard, don't make trouble, I am always happy and peppy and agreeable...atleast I think I am. Is it possible that I am TOO happy? Does that scare people?