For years I hated the holidays as I lost my father in December in 1997 and my mom in January of 2003 .... far far too early.

I realized that hating the holidays did nothing but hurt me.

About 5 years ago I decided enough was enough I refused to bring other family members and friends down and YES it was bringing them down.

Has it been easy ? No

Every day is a gift I know I know overused .... but I truly believe that every day counts ... I will never be this age again , today is a day I still have my Husband and Daughter etc etc down the list it goes.

The only thing that bothers me is the Christmas songs coming so soon. The use to me be so special and mysterious growing up. Since I seldom have money to go spend I’m not out in stores shopping so I avoid the music and save a ton of money lol

Anyway that’s my story and I’m sticking too it.