I have done bad things I cant mention here. My therapists says it was probably from some sexual trauma but I cant know so it kills me inside. We have gone over coping strategies for my thoughts and impulses and i hardly have them anymore. So i am managing that. So what about all my other issues like aversion to semen, finding women who were sexually abused attractive because they are strong and vulnerable, my complete freak outs around sexual abuse topics and sex in general, and countless other things? Is she not trained to give her opionion on where these issues come from? She does suggest things like she thi nks it was my mom or that I was sexually abused in general and dont remember but didnt she go to school for that?