Good for you for trying something new. I'm not saying it isn't awkward for me too -- I often postively dread going to the next session after I feel like I've emailed something personal. But I force myself and at least that way I feel like I'm not wasting both of our time. Maybe you could try writing your thoughts on a separate piece of paper (not your whole journal) and give her a couple minutes to read it to herself next time if that's easier? I don't know, I would probably prefer letting her read than me having to read aloud. Being willng to try something new to help her help you seems like you're on the right track. Take care.