I cry at what to most would appear to be very weird, non-threatening things. I'll give you a couple of examples...

I had a survey to take for homework and one of the questions was, "What deceased person do you most try to emulate?" My first thought is that it doesn't matter who I name, I'm falling FAR SHORT of that goal, i.e. I'm a fk up, commence crying.

I avoided most of the Veteran's Day stuff today. It's not the sacrifice of vets that does me in, it's my feeling that I'm a fk up who doesn't do enough, commence crying.

I got an advertisement from Verizon. I get these little free things and one of them was a free 3 month membership to an app for meditation. This is the one that REALLY did me in. I used to think that I don't meditate because I couldn't quiet my mind but now, I think I'm SCARED. I'm SCARED to be that alone with my thoughts. I'm scared of what I might find there and I'm even more scared that i won't find anything at all.

How the fk am I supposed to get better when I am so scared to look inside?