I wanted to let everyone know, especially those who have been so kind and offered so much support, that I am checking myself into a psychiatric facility tomorrow. I finally understand that I am no longer safe. There is something inside me that wants to hurt me and I have no power to keep it at bay anymore. I have some really great and supportive friends here that talked to me for the last 24 hours while I had one panic attack and sobbing fit after another. They had to forcefully explain that I was not nearly as Okay as I thought I was and they were ready to make me go. I decided it better to go voluntarily and finally got comfortable and rational about the whole thing. The bottom line is that if I don't want to die, I have to go. And I have so much to live for. I didn't do this to myself. I was taken off my meds by a cardiologist for a valid reason. This is not who I am. I want to be myself again. I think the safest way to start a new medication is in a controlled environment anyway. I'm scared to death and I can't sleep. I'm having a lot of anxiety, chest pain and trying not to hyperventilate. If there's anyone awake and there's any way we can chat somewhere, let me know and teach me how to do it. I don't want to be alone and I've texted all my friends and they are asleep. If anyone can help it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks, Mary