Gah! In theory, I now have enough time to do this, and in theory, this Thursday I would have a good opportunity to go visit the counselling service at uni, but I still keep thinking up reasons why this would be a bad idea.

- I don't have much time left this semester - I may have left it too late. I wouldn't be able to keep going over the Easter break (in two weeks) without my parents finding out, and I wouldn't be able to go for a month over the summer holiday because we'll be going away. Even if my parents did know and accept it, it wouldn't be easy coming here each week while I'm at home. Especially since I'm meant to be finding a job again.

- If I did keep going over the summer, though, and carried on until next year, one of my best friends (who I'll hopefully be staying with next year) would inevitably find out - you can't keep that sort of thing from people who live with you. I have no idea how she'd take it - I've never told anyone in real life outside of immediate family before, and the subject of mental health has never come up with her or my other best friend here (who I'd probably end up having to tell as well, in case she ended up hearing it from my other friend anyway). I know it's easy to say "if they don't understand, they're not true friends", but I didn't really have any friends last year at school and I don't want to go back to that.

- I don't know if I'd be able to keep it from my flatmates I'm with at the moment either, actually.

- It adds another complication to flat hunting for next year, if I have to find somewhere where I'd be able to get to therapy in addition to uni. (We're already on quite a tight budget, or else my friend may not be able to afford it.)

I don't know...it seems so simple - go to the uni counselling service, and they'll suggest options for longer term therapy - but it just seems like there are so many complications, I'm not sure it'd be worth it!