Speaking of wanting to cancel appointments, I'm not sure if I want to keep my therapy appointment tomorrow because I'm afraid it could be one of my bad period days, you know, the one day a month where i'm in so much pain I don't get out of bed. (I feel like a broken record on this, but maybe I haven't said it enough on this site.) Anyway, so I'm not sure if that day will be tomorrow and I am stressing about having to make this decision to cancel or not. The other problem is that I'll have to likely cancel or reschedule next week's therapy too. I'm starting to feel like giving up on therapy altogether, this DBT therapy, because I don't know if I'm advancing quick enough, making enough progress. Sigh

I was also stressed today because I had to make a meal that took a bit of concentration. Of course it ended up better than I'd feared, but I think I was so anxious I was going over and over it prior and that prepped me. I'm exhausted though.

Just to catch up, last week I saw my primary care doctor after a long time. We talked about a LOT of stuff. I don't even know what to share, except that he seems convinced that my health issues are causing my mood issues and that one day we might change my meds accordingly. Oh it's another stressor. I know I'm in good hands with him, but his practice is kinda far from home.