So I see this therapist that spealizes in trauma. I dont have any memories of trauma but have issues that people think are from trauma. I was referred to her my a mental health skill builder. She is a LCSW and owns her own practice. We had been working on EMDR for some things I do remember but they are only snippets. I contacted her yesterday and told her I wouldnt be doing EMDR now and maybe never because it has robbed me of my emotions. I literally feel nothing. I used to feel high anxiety around some sexual thoughts and impulses but that is much less. Well that may sound good but I would rather fee anxiety than be a blob. Anyway, when I talk about my problems now she often says well I think thats because you were sexually abused at a young age and just dont remember. I personally dont mind it because I am not trained and she is. On the other hand I do mind it because I cant know that for sure since I have no memory earlier than 7 or 8. I feel it is living a lie as I have done some bad things and I feel that saying it is because I was sexually abused could be a lie. What should I feel or do?