It's understandable that you want this because the things that challenge you are things that come from a very sensitive amygdala that is brought on by experiencing too many early traumas and not having the life skills to know how to self protect better. That is why you developed disassociating into different ways of handling the different challenges you face.

However ((rise13)), human beings actually do create characters all the time to help deal with all kinds of challenges. Something "greater than" ourselves that we can reach out to to bring comfort. We all want to embrace some kind of character that has the ability to bring peace and resolve and emotional calming, a presence that can actually help each of us learn "what to do with these challenging emotions we experience".

A young woman got pregnant, was kicked out of her home and was suddenly homeless. This woman would sit in a little restaurant and she began to quietly imagine a different world with all kinds of different characters, some with amazing powers, magical powers and a magical place that taught young special little human beings to master some very magical skills. Little did this woman know she was in the process of creating something that would capture the interest of so many other people who too wanted to imagine "with" her. We are talking about a woman who most definitely was emotionally challenged and battling depression, yet she ended up creating the amazing world of "Harry Potter". This woman sat and disassociated into an imaginary world, a world she could control away from the reality of the real world she had been living at the time.

It isn't that you struggle so much emotionally, it's that you have not quite found a productive way of channeling these emotions. This is actually a very common challenge when it comes to human beings. As a result, we have countless stories, gods, and music that we create to bring us comfort. Things would be quite boring without emotions actually, did you ever think about that? When a child has to face an environment that child doesn't know how to control, that child tends to create their own world where they can find comfort. However, some of the amazing things human beings end up creating actually begin within the imagination "first" and that's what is so amazing about human beings. Who would have thought that when someone imagined the fictional world of "Star Treck" that one day that imagined phone would end up becoming a reality that we all use now? Emotions drive imagination and communications that can lead to creating actual things we end up having in the "real world". So, while it's so very hard to deal with emotions, they are not as "bad" as we come to believe. Often our emotions are the beginning of something we end up creating into becoming a reality.