Today was alright; I woke up a little bit depressed I haven't slept alone in a while. I know kitty was there but it just isn't the same as a man. I guess I got so used to him snore/wheezing in my ear. I didn't fall asleep much before 3am last night, and then I had to be up at 7. It was weird getting ready alone, I got so used to his alarm and my alarm going off that it's weird just having one. I ended up not wanting to eat breakfast at home and grabbing something on the way to work; along with coffee I didn't need.


Work was alright, I'm getting the hang of referrals but managing a practice is a whole different ballgame. My boss emailed me the credentials of all the medical staff, I felt like a stalker reading them. I know it's my job, but it just felt so weird. I guess this just proves I've got a little longer to go before I understand all it takes to manage a practice.


The PA and I did lunch together, he's really good about talking my anxiety down a few notches. I have exactly a week before I see Cardiologist and I am massively terrified my brain keeps coming up with zebra diagnosis's. I decided to let him come along, I just don't want to be alone. I know realistically all he is going to do is probably order a laundry list of tests, but still my brain keeps coming up with anxiety to the situation.


Currently waiting for my first of four therapy sessions this week; I'll let you all know how this goes.


Hugs to everyone