Im sorry that happened to your brother
I guess I have been lucky so far but I do have stomach issues sometimes Im sure at least partly due to both abusing different pills long term along with ODs and alcohol.
Im not even sure why I do this to myself. I cant even see any reason that I want to be numb right now, I feel ok I think.

My husband woke up so I didnt take anything, its hard to do when he is awake and I feel more guilty if I try to hide it deliberately. He said he meant to have the beer gone before I got home when he realized I drank it.