I resonate so much with your post. When I started therapy I didn’t really even think I needed it. I was functional, happy and my life was rich with many blessings. Based on what I knew from my childhood though I knew that it had to have had an impact on me somehow I just wasn’t sure how. I decided to go to therapy really try and deal with that and to reduce the risk of passing on negative traits I had accumulated due to that childhood to my potential future kids. I always (and sometimes still do) feel like I shouldn’t be there and that there are so many people with so many bigger issues and mine pale in comparison. I still have a lot to be thankful for in my life and I don’t have any mental health struggles like depression etc. Relational trauma and developmental trauma have been mentioned at various points. Sometimes I’m totally on board with them and read about their impact and take it all in but other times I think ‘enough already it’s time to move on’

Anyway I didn’t want to hijack the post about turning it all about me (but it appears I have) I guess mainly I’m trying to say is you are not alone. It Notmal to feel like that. Developmental trauma and emotional neglect have been shown to have as much of an impact as any of the more visible traumas so you are not a fraud but it is understandable to feel hat way.

Also, getting someone’s undivided attention for 50 minutes can bring up lots of feelings for anyone especially someone who has experienced emotional neglect in their childhood.