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Originally Posted by Lrad123
I can give care both at home and at work, but I think it’s hard for me to receive, and 14 months into therapy I still don’t know how to get past this. In some aspects of my life I am confident, but in therapy I still feel like a weak little kid who is awkward about being the center of attention for an entire 50 minutes. It’s pretty ridiculously frustrating. I’m just wondering how to get past this or if I should even try.
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This seems like the real thing, not whether you've had it better than others in the past.
To accept what others offer-- love, acceptance, comfort, a place to sit with yourself-- it's a big deal. For me this increases my sense of vulnerability, challenges my desire to be fiercely independent, makes me wonder if I deserve it, evokes my feelings of accepting "charity," worries me about what they are going to expect in return, jacks up my fear of being hurt when they inevitably don't offer it. And so on. If I'm not my own island, who am I?