Hi! I'm glad your feeling better! It sounds like your mom is dealing with her own depression really well.

I find the article you mentioned interesting. It does seem to hold some truth. Sometimes one is so depressed that any obstacle, small or large, seems like too much to overcome even when one feels desperate to end it all. I have often contemplated (when in the unrelenting grip of darkest depression) suicide, but I have only actually attempted a few times. Each of those times it was easy to obtain the particular things needed to make the attempts.

It brings to mind a conversation I had with T in which he stated that if I ever feel suicidal, to let him know and we will talk about it. I looked at him and stated that if I really wanted to die, I certainly would not let him know, as he would try to stop me. I then stated that I didn't understand why someone who really wanted to kill him/herself would reach out for help. His reply was that it happens quite often. I still don't understand the logic, honestly. The information in the article also seems to clear up the reason that it seems so important to therapists (in my experience) to know how a person tried to end his life, whether it was planned in advance, or more on impulse, etc.

Thanks for your post! It was very encouraging. Here's to you!