The questions thread I started disappeared. I thought I had followed the guidelines about research but I get why those behind the curtain are protective of the members and I understand so, no worries as a good friend from Oz says.

So, this one is just generic. Not for an information grab. I really do want to one day make a difference for myself and everyone else with personality styled disorders. Each time I return to the doc shop it seems I get another streamer tied to my yard arm of diagnoses...lol. I’m beginning to think I’ve become somewhat of a zoological experiment. “Come see the old lady who keeps refusing medication suggestions! Let’s tack another one on and see if she breaks and accepts the scripts.”

Sooo...doc believes I am on the very high end of functional autism spectrum...she wants to consult with a colleague before finalizing that one. I used to get calls from my Kiddos who both watched “The Big Bang” ((the hubs and I now enjoy it in the rare event we turn on the television and it’s on somewhere)). Anyway; one of them would call or text about something the Sheldon character did or said and remark how the writers must be bugging our house. I had no idea what that show was about until we saw it listed last year and decided to watch it. It didn’t take long to see why the kids were so convinced our house was wired by someone working for those guys. It was nice to see a lot of myself reflected from a fairly well written and researched sitcom. At least most of the scientific banter got pretty close to accurate. I mentioned that to my son and his remark was, “of course that’s what you noticed first”. Smart *$$ kid.

Now, it seems, the docs are casting lots to see what else they can find.
Yippee.

As I’ve mentioned, it’s taken nearly half a century for me to get myself to a point I was even willing to go into a psychiatrist’s office. I was reared by a narcissistic, paranoid who has three degrees in psychology and psychotherapy. By the time I was ten, I’d been given just about every test they had at the time including the Stanford Binet, the Wexler and the Minnesota Multiphasic. Then came the more psychosis geared tests...I was my father’s physically and emotionally abused Rhesus monkey and I had pretty much had enough and began to just mess with the testers he dragged me to, out of sheer exhaustion and boredom.

I have a high IQ. Big deal. I’m also dyslexic and have a severe phobia of people I don’t know. So, that kind of throws the old, “my kid’s a genius” banner right out the window...next best thing...break her so I’m not a failure at getting the full potential out of my potentially famous kid. Pops was a big fan of Skinner’s behavior modification techniques. I wonder if anyone realized that man was a sadistic ($$$), too?

OK...lots of venting to say this...I am here to learn. I am here to help. I am here to commune with others who have walked through all the levels of Dante’s hell before I turned thirty-five. I am not here to use, coerce or otherwise hurt or take advantage of anyone. I have issues...everyone here has issues. Some of us are just much older and possibly wise enough to help, understand , empathize and help while at the same time, gain a better handle on their own neuroses. That’s it. No hidden agendas or manefestos. I have a background in all types of scientific research, all things Reiki and a great deal of experience in acupressure, quantum touch and meridians (body energy pathways). I’m not anything other than an inquisitive student of the big and the small ways everything works.

So...let’s talk. If you feel like I could help you, I’m here. If you think you could help me, I’m attentive and appreciative. Alrighty, I think I’m finished and will step off my soap box now. I hope everyone has an amazing rest of the week!