I don't know what to do anymore!!!!

I've been literally working my *** off, working full time and still going to college full time. I've sacrificed seeing my kids...I haven't seen my boy for more then a half an hour a day this last two weeks, and my poor little girl keeps crying for me during the day. I basically go to work then go straight to class from there. I stay in class till 9:30 pm.

My husband failed us....

He quit his job with benefits for an unknown reason, still I cannot fully explain...and did not make an effort to get a equal or better job. I got a job in desperation not aware of how difficult it would be on my children and I. I know how my mother felt being a single mother. My husband lays around and drinks all day. I got paid 200 dollars on my first pay check and he drank 40 dollars worth of it up. I now have 7 dollars to last for two weeks.

I'm panicking....

I checked my mail today and there was the eviction notice I had been dreading but expecting. I owe three months rent. Every utility has a cut off notice for the next couple weeks. Ya'll won't hear from me soon neither because my Internet is miraculously still on, I'm not sure why.

I HATE my husband. It's sick that I feel this way, but I do. He's destroyed my life....he'd rather sit around and be a piece of %#@&#! drunk then feed his kids.

He won't even go to Wal Mart to get a work release form so we can get food stamps, we are NOT receiving any benefits at all.

I've never been soooooo ready to leave ever! I'm ready, I'm more prepared now to be a single mother then I have ever been. My fear has basically suppressed to instinct, the instinct to survive and care for my children.



Soooooo, sorry....I despise it when people ***** about bills and money, but I'm truly terrified. I'm so scared. If I lose my kids....I won't be able to go on....

If I never sleep, just work third shift, work my other job, and still keep my schooling or resort to on line classes, take part time next semester....something, anything...it just HAS to work.