Just had my first session back after about a one month break (cause I was away). It was nice to see him again. Talked to him... About some sensitive stuff between me and my bf. Sex stuff. He was really good with listening and repeating to make sure he understood. I think I've come to a good understanding now. Was a relief to talk about it. I guess I felt like my bf was pushing me away / wasn't interested in me sexually whereas... Performance anxiety. I think that was the thing. Which is fine by me (we can work on that together) whereas the other... There wouldn't be a we :-(

I've never talked about that kind of stuff in therapy before... Was hard... But not as hard as I thought it might be. Stuff that is harder about my past and stuff like that.

I asked my t whether he had been to the US (in the context of telling him how I found it) and he was like 'I grew up there'. And I asked him where and he said 'Long Island'. So... That was a kind of surprising thing for me to learn about my t... Wonder when he moved to Australia... Thought I'd be prying to ask too much more... I don't know why this makes a difference to me, but it does. Hard to explain. Changes things in a good way... It is like he has a connection to this new part of my life that I'm fostering. Maybe that is it.

I wuv my t.