so... I am continuing on.... trying a "new experienment"... to like eating... well trying to get used to the idea of even thinking about food as enjoyable..... I have a long, long way to go....

I was able to resist going to the store... to buy a cake... to binge on... but.. oh,,,, I am so so praying this urge eases by tomorrow... cause I have therapy ... and since I will be out... it may just be too hard to not buy the cake... and eat it... all of it....

It is all I can think about... eating the cake.. and how much it would ease my pain and anxiety....