I really need some advice. I have an unhealthy obsession with my psychiatrist. I see him a father figure type because I lack parental figures in my life. I guess I want someone to take care of me and he's the closest thing I have. I only see him once a month so I don't know why I have such a strong obsession.

I've spent hours and hours searching for information online. I google him everyday and get the same exact results. I know his address, his parents address, the names of his wife and kids, his parents and siblings' names, his wife's siblings names and their kids' names. I know where he went to grade school. I found pictures of his kids on his wife's myspace page. I've even driven by his house and I think about him all the time. I wonder what he's doing, what he's like with his kids, etc. I've even fantasized about being his daughter.

What's wrong with me? Has anyone else had such a strong obsession? What should I do about this? I need to talk to someone about this but I'm too embarassed. I'm sure he'll understandably be creeped out and drop me as a patient if he finds out. Not only is my obsession unhealthy but it's really a waste of time. With the time I spend thinking about him and trying to find more info on him, I could be reading a book, contemplating about my life, finding a new hobby, doing yoga, or something else more rewarding. Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks.