Yes, maybe -- a shift from hyper-focus on doing to more acceptance of just being, what ever that may be. Except that if your default daily being can be suicidal ideation, I can understand why you might not want to do that. Why that might not necessarily be a workable, functional shift for you.

Ordinarily, in years long past, I would have thought that "therapy" could help someone with that kind of situation. Except that I know now that's not always the case and you know from your experience, too. But, to put it in the old way of talking about things that octoberful mentioned, if there's stuff down there in the Id that the Ego doesn't want or can't deal with, there's probably a reason for that. So it certainly sucks that, despite the theory which may point to something valid, lots of time therapists can't help.

Which I know isn't something you would like to hear and of course it's just my opinion. But it does sound like you have a bit of a dilemma, so that's my 2 cents again about it.

Have you tried any of the alternatives to therapy? Meditation or something like that? Training your mind to focus on the breath or the moment. Perhaps that could help shift the current "default".