I've had two deeply felt, intense, attached relationships with two different Ts. The first T I saw for three years. I stopped seeing her because I moved. I've been seeing my current T for four years.

I've had lots of transference feelings in both relationships, but I've only been able to talk about them with this T. I wasn't ready to admit that I cared about my first T or that I really, really wanted her to care about me. Now I think it's good that I can care about my T and be cared about and to talk about all of it. Just because it's good, though, hasn't meant it's been easy.

I thought I would never have another amazing T relationship. How could I? My former T was the best in the world. Luckily I found the other best T in the world, too. (I don't post much, but read regularly. Know that I'm aware of just how many 'best T's in the world there really are!)