Are you working? I ask because seeing a therapist is a good idea for you. Just so they can track your mood too. Some therapist won't work with certain unmedicated patients. (ie. me). I believe in kindling basically every episode you have your disease gets worse. Does your husband know you're off medication? what are his thoughts? I'm all for no or low medication as long as you can keep yourself safe and protect your family from your episodes. Don't let it be a yo-yo thing though. If your off meds try for x amount of months unless you are hospitalized. Even if that means doing intensive outpatient program or partial hospitalization program. If you go back on meds commit to x years and therapy before trying to be med free / low meds again.