Going back up or down or mixed or something. My sleep is out of whack, too little, too much energy, too irritable. I've been snapping at people. I'm alternating between overwhelming bad thoughts and overwhelming positive, electric feeling energy.

So I guess that means I've got another episode coming down the pipe I think. The BEST part about all of this is I'm in between pdocs at the moment so I can't get any med adjustments! Yay!

I'm totally screwed until late this month! Possibly. I feel like amazing garbage. It's not that intense yet but I know it gets worse. The lack of sleep is going to catch up to me and I'm going to really go off the rails. I have work tonight and I don't know if I'm going to be able to keep it together. Ugh.

I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't want to be hospitalized again.