Una I was just composing a draft email to a new T and considering telling R that I had made up my mind and was definitely NOT going to come on tuesday even after my second email with the smiley face confirming tuesdays appointment.

In all honesty I don't know what I'm doing. I've never had anyone there for me so I get that I'm angry and bitter ,but at the same time all I want to do is cling to him because I feel like I don't know who I am without him and I'm so weak in this need for him it's ridiculous.

P.s You really do speak lemoncake. I was considering watching Minority report today.