Dear YouOMe. Well I dont hate when people complain about bills etc. But many times, I think to myself, come on you dont have it that bad. WELL, I wish I could say that this time. Damn you are in a hard place! NO Doubt. My thinking tells me your hubby got fired rather then quit. That could explain his drinking. And drinking certainly has not helped the problem for either of you. But it can help him sleep away a few hours so he does not need to think about it. NOT good for either of you. Believe it or not, as bad for him as for you. If there is any way for you to start part time at school for now I would. I know you feel you are sacrificing so much now, but if you do not you may be out on the street! Ya Gotta Do What Ya Gotta do for now! I feel for your situation. I have been there, almost identical, but thank goodness, I only had me and my lazy hubby, no children! I felt exactly as you do! It is not a good feeling. Especially when you probably feel like hubby does not care, why is he leaving all the responsibility to you etc. Good question. I am sure it is feeling he has failed, let you down, etc. And the worse it gets the worse he will get. If there is any time of Mental health in the City of (wherever you live) look for a psychologist in that mental health. They have payscale and you have no money, so it should be free. The reason I suggest that is that I have no idea of how to effectively deal with your hubby. But they will. And I hope you can fall back in love with him as well as both of you deal with the problem. My heart goes out for you. Good luck to you. You will be in my prayers!