Thank you all for the replies.

I have met with my T three times since posting this message and feel a lot better. I think I was disappointed in myself because I felt like I had been close to her and then I started to give up and tell myself that she wouldn't ever possibly be able to help me. I didn't think she noticed but the week before last she asked if I was okay because I seemed "distant." She actually kind of reached with her hand in the air towards me and tried to "pull me back." It was cute.

She also was amazing last week. When I felt like the rest of my "treatment team" was giving up on me, she was there to help. She did seem to actually care last time. She told me she had reread my email and was concerned for my safety. I've been able to bring up harder topics with her lately and feel much better. She even called this morning. In the 7-8 months I've been working with her, this has never happened (although I do send her emails sometimes). I have major phone anxiety and haven't really talked to non-family members on the phone without a panic attack since February 2007. But, I was able to call her back tonight! It went fine and even though I just left a message, there was not much freaking out.

I don't think I want to switch anymore ;-)