I got sick when I started junior high. I had a lot of friends that I had since preschool and Kindergarten that stopped being friends with me because of my issues. They then turned the school against me. I can’t really blame them though. I wasn’t really nice and my behavior was odd. Plus we were in junior High and junior high kids usually are assholes. I felt hurt though that every time I tried to make new friends my old friends told these kids not to be friends with me and these new kids listened. I remember one time a group of kids invited me to sit with them and the next day I was not invited but an old friend was and I was at a table by myself while she kept turning around and staring at me. That friend in particular still hurts. I didn’t do anything big to her I don’t think. I really just remember that she got new friends and didn’t want anything to do with me anymore. She was still friends with me a couple months after the others stopped being friends with me. I just feel really betrayed by her. I remember asking her if I was still her friend and she didn’t respond. 13 years later I wonder how she feels now about the situation. If she’s matured at all and feels guilty or still doesn’t care or if she honestly doesn’t even remember. I keep getting told that your real friends will stick by you no matter what. Yet it still hurts.