My anxiety at work was really bad today. I hate it at morning meetings when
A manager stares at me when talking about what my department needs to improve in. I’m sure she doesn’t mean anything by it. I think it was just because I was the only one in my department in her line of sight. I took my Xanax early. I took it at 10:15 this morning. I’ve been up since before 2 and I am dealing with PMDD. I have 4 days left of my pills until I take my placebo. I’m also dealing with the holiday anxiety and I think I’m getting physically sick too. Also some weirdo messaged me on Facebook which was unsettling since this is a trigger of mine. I’m doing good with the one Xanax a day instead of two. I’m not going to tell my doctor this. I want to stockpile them in case something happens. I know this is probably not a good way to think.