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Old Nov 15, 2018, 11:03 PM
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Originally Posted by Erecura View Post
I have been in therapy for about half a year now and on our last session, I asked my therapist, if she thinks that I have a depression or something else. She told me that she doesn't think I have a depression, because people with this diagnosis see everything in the negative light and I can still manage to have some kind of hope and positive emotions, I only need the right help to guide me. She also told me that most people who suffer from depression find it difficult to even get out of bed and do simple tasks like taking a shower, while I can go to work and function normally.


I have to say it surprised me. I was wondering, if she sees something else in me, if it's not depression, is it possible I have something else? But she told me that she doesn't see me as a person with a psychiatric diagnosis, because I have a healthy relationship, a job and friends with whom I meet often, and all those things are usually huge trouble for those who actually suffer from a mental disorder.


On one hand, it helped me feeling better about myself, but on the other... I have always felt like there's something really wrong with me. Like I am not... right and I have been dealing with tons of negative emotions and feelings of emptiness. Her statement made me feel like ... I am just a weak loser who simply fails at life...


Is it true that if you manage to function normally have a job, friends, love, family, manage to get up in the morning etc... You actually don't have a diagnosis?


My t said something similar but my doctor diagnosed me with depression and put me in medication when I first started therapy about 8 years ago.
I went to work carried on with life as normal but inside I was dying a slow death, I couldn’t suppress my tears. They would just roll out as I was talking to people. I would say oh, it’s allergies or a cold.
I had no interest in anything and didn’t care whether I lived or died.
Depression comes in many different forms. Sounds like you do have depression and just because it looks differently and you still function doesn’t mean you don’t have it!
Please trust your own experience and knowledge of yourself because after all ours ts don’t know everything and nor do they know us as well as we know ourself.
I felt invalidated by my t insisting I didn’t have depression and felt like I was exaggerating or lying but when my doctor said he was extremely concerned and put me on medication he even advised I stop therapy because it wasn’t helping that really helped me.
Please do what is right for you.
Thanks for this!
LonesomeTonight