((((JoeS21)))) I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad. Please seek out another therapist. I know it seems hopeless now, but trust me, you have so much to give to the world. Please, focus on healing yourself at the moment, even if it means temporarely giving up your studies - your life is the top priority. I'm sorry you're suffering and that people have treated you this badly, but you are worthy of love. I'm so sorry...