Ice always neen a pack rat. Part of my ocd is to keep and hoard everything

Well yesterday I threw out 9 bags of garbage and part of it was blankets that was going to go in my babys crib when he was born 8 years ago. Well he never made it home and yesterday I threw away his crib bumpers and I kept saying I didn't get rid of the clothes he wore so this is ok because he never made it home

And today I'm feeling like I made a bad choice like I was a bad mom and I can't shake my urges today. I'm rambling sorry I just feel so rotten and wrong

I wish he would have made it. Maybe id have
Been better. Dunno

He would be 8 this year and I always wonder what life would be like with him here

Thanks for listening
Colleen