Had my T appt yesterday and it went really well. She wasnt dissapointed in me and said she is invested in seeing me get well. We talked a bit about my abandonment fears and trust issues and I agreed to doing some emailing in between visits to make more progress.

She sent a question to start it because its hard for me to reach out to anyone and emailing someone with what is going on in my head feels like that. She plans to send questions until I maybe get used to it.

Im pretty sure she is the only person not dissapointed in me right now.

Had the worst parent teachers last night. We were there 40min longer than we were booked for. So frustrating and the kids were tired and acting out because it ended up way past bedtime.

Dont feel like getting out of bed today(930am here) and my arm keeps hurting worse every day but I got a Dr appt for tuesday. Just hoping she doesnt ask about how Im doing on the meds because I like her and would probably tell the truth and I dont want to talk about it.