I have come to realise lately that I am never going to be able to leave therapy voluntarily.
The longer I see t the more I love her. I have tried to deny these feelings for a long time but they just keep getting stronger. I have tried leaving before but I always crawl back. The thing is that t knows I will always come back no matter what she says or does and sometimes she has been extremely cruel and I still go back.
I feel stuck in this horrible place. I was so trigger last weekend I was in a really bad place, I text t on Sunday and she rang, I realised after our phone call that t can’t be that person for me, I want a real person to soothe me.
I want someone in my real life to ring and calm me down and tell me everything is going to be ok.