What is up with these wild mood swings ... oh yeh, I have bipolar. Still, one would think all the ECT would be having an effect by now, but no, I am all over the map. This last week I was high as a kite for a week then came crashing down into suicidal depression the day before my maintenance ECT on Thursday. Now it's Saturday and I am still low but thankfully not as low. It is morning and I really hope that my mood picks up as my sister is having her 45th Birthday party tonight with over 100 people, 30 of which are children, and I am the chief photographer. It should be fun if I can get my head out of the darkness.