It makes no sense to me why I suddenly feel empowered in my therapy relationship and it’s driving me crazy that I don’t understand it. I’ve been in therapy with the same T for about 14 months and it was my pattern to email him routinely with my thoughts. Initially, it was very hard to open up in session, so I think this was helpful. Eventually it became a bit disorganized at times and I’d obsess about him and about thoughts related to therapy. On the one hand, I think emailing him helped me process things much more deeply, but it also made me feel a bit overwhelmed and crazy sometimes. He’d typically respond with brief reassurance and mostly redirect things back to our therapy hour. About a month ago he said he’d stop responding to my emails altogether but would still read them. I felt hurt, rejected and ashamed and even thought about finding a new therapist. But now, a month later, I feel tremendously empowered and I don’t understand why. I have chosen not to email him and my level of obsessing about therapy (feeling disorganized?) has gone way down. I feel like I no longer dread going to my therapy appointments and I see him a little bit more like a normal human being. It’s freeing and weird and I wish I understood what the heck happened to produce this change. Does anyone understand why taking away between session response would actually make me feel better?